one of the most commonly asked questions for me is: "what is the biggest thing you have learned". so i have been preparing myself to answer this. it's funny, sort of like preparing for the big exam. pep talking myself; reminding myself; analyzing myself.
i realized that one of the biggest things i learned was that my relationship with God is my responsibility. this is nothing legalistic, nothing binding. what i mean by this is: it is up to me to make sure we are communicating, that we are spending time together.
you would not go to someone's house you do not know EXPECTING that they will feed you. you'd eat before you went, or eat afterwards. then, if they DO feed you, it is just glorious extras!! the same is with God. i cannot expect that i will be fed by any man or woman in my life- that is too much pressure and i am looking to them for to be my mediator. i don't need that - I NEED TO KNOW GOD FOR MYSELF. it is up to me to make sure i am eating and staying full.
today, this hit home again. in LUKE 10:38-42 we see a super famous passage. it is the ever challenging, almost infamous "mary vs. martha" passage.
i saw for the first time that as martha was busy, the scripture says in v. 40 (in NKJV) that she was "distracted with much serving". she then became irritated with JESUS and her SISTER. this spoke to me, in how when we get so busy serving that we get frustrated with Jesus and our brothers/sisters for not helping in the way we think they should. later in v.41, when she scolds Him, He addresses the problem. He does not speak to the physical things she was doing - probably because she was an honorable woman with a heart to be hospitible and serve her Lord and Savior, but instead He addresses the real issues. He says, "Martha, Martha, you are WORRIED and TROUBLED about many things." boom. right there Jesus did not get upset with her; He only pierced the heart.
this is the place that the relationship became a BURDEN, rather than REST.
it is here that Jesus says that "one thing is needed". He says that Mary has chosen it. that one thing needed?...to sit at His feet and be spiritually fed.
over these few months, God has reallllllly challenged me to a "sit at His feet" lifestyle. for goodness sakes, He even put me on house arrest for a few days. ha ha. He has been teaching me that i ABSOLUTELY MUST have this time with Him. it is vital to being, and becoming, who i truly am. it is cruical to being able to continue serving with my heart, and not becoming "distracted with much serving". it is what will keep me from becoming irritated with Jesus or my sister.
I DESIRE TO CHOOSE THE ONE THING THAT IS NEEDED. that is what i know so far...
i realized that one of the biggest things i learned was that my relationship with God is my responsibility. this is nothing legalistic, nothing binding. what i mean by this is: it is up to me to make sure we are communicating, that we are spending time together.
you would not go to someone's house you do not know EXPECTING that they will feed you. you'd eat before you went, or eat afterwards. then, if they DO feed you, it is just glorious extras!! the same is with God. i cannot expect that i will be fed by any man or woman in my life- that is too much pressure and i am looking to them for to be my mediator. i don't need that - I NEED TO KNOW GOD FOR MYSELF. it is up to me to make sure i am eating and staying full.
today, this hit home again. in LUKE 10:38-42 we see a super famous passage. it is the ever challenging, almost infamous "mary vs. martha" passage.
i saw for the first time that as martha was busy, the scripture says in v. 40 (in NKJV) that she was "distracted with much serving". she then became irritated with JESUS and her SISTER. this spoke to me, in how when we get so busy serving that we get frustrated with Jesus and our brothers/sisters for not helping in the way we think they should. later in v.41, when she scolds Him, He addresses the problem. He does not speak to the physical things she was doing - probably because she was an honorable woman with a heart to be hospitible and serve her Lord and Savior, but instead He addresses the real issues. He says, "Martha, Martha, you are WORRIED and TROUBLED about many things." boom. right there Jesus did not get upset with her; He only pierced the heart.
this is the place that the relationship became a BURDEN, rather than REST.
it is here that Jesus says that "one thing is needed". He says that Mary has chosen it. that one thing needed?...to sit at His feet and be spiritually fed.
over these few months, God has reallllllly challenged me to a "sit at His feet" lifestyle. for goodness sakes, He even put me on house arrest for a few days. ha ha. He has been teaching me that i ABSOLUTELY MUST have this time with Him. it is vital to being, and becoming, who i truly am. it is cruical to being able to continue serving with my heart, and not becoming "distracted with much serving". it is what will keep me from becoming irritated with Jesus or my sister.
I DESIRE TO CHOOSE THE ONE THING THAT IS NEEDED. that is what i know so far...
christie
1 comments:
so good to hear how you are doing. You're speaking right at me. Thanks for living transparently and encouraging a sister. Love and miss you. See you very soon!
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